September 2009
146 posts
“We waited, and waited. Now we’re smacking them around.”
– My great-aunt over the phone from Israel, when asked “What’s going on over there?” (via iamsolomon)
I don't think I can drink Tea anymore... back to...
(via iamsolomon)
Intensive Therapy Session
iamsolomon:
I haven’t learned a thing.
I’d talk about my trip to Utah in detail, but honestly I’m too lethargic right now. I’m proud of myself for staying composed during the trip. Only crying when I rounded the corner away from his house, and of course as the plane took off I cried in the dim cabin. Things went down in Utah that I’ll only put in a novel. But above all that? I just enjoyed...
iamsolomon:
Left and Leaving by the Weakerthans.
Classical
[Redacted]: Do you have any cigarettes?
Me: Yeah. But I thought you hated them and thought they were disgusting.
[Redacted]: I do, it's a love hate relationship.
Me: Like with me?
[Redacted]: Especially.
iamsolomon:
I Didn’t Understand by Elliott...
I don't like to be touched. And it takes all the...
iamsolomon:
Discovery of the day.
Nautical Miles
iamsolomon:
Something is different this year. Apart from my age, and my height, and the length of my hair. Something bigger than how I act, and how I feel. Something much deeper. Last year, I wore a Star of David around my neck. A proclamation of every belief I held, and it stood like a neon sign for my identity.
On New Years eve, I traded my Star of David for a Swallow. For a long time I had a...
Corrections
Me: I look forward to seeing you! Shorty can I buy you a drank?
Pat: MAY you buy me a drink? Yes. Yes, you may.
Me: Alright shortay, may I buy you a drank?
“He told me about how he was tripping once, and he was engaging in...”
– Andrea, on none other than my Nut. (via iamsolomon)
iamsolomon:
Down to Your Soul by Right Away,...
You're everything I hate about myself. Everything...
(via iamsolomon)
“I love you also means I love you more than anyone loves you, or has loved you,...”
– Jonathan Safron Foer.
Just say you love me too.
(via iamsolomon)
“Ilana, you aren’t a Goddess.”
– David. (via iamsolomon)
I get called deep so often, I forget the...
iamsolomon:
I’m not at all an intellectual, or a philosopher. I have nothing to say and no words to convey my thoughts anyway. Sometimes I let my tongue run off. Other times I let my mind retract. I push myself to pull away and I can’t begin to comprehend why. So if deep is a synonym of insomniac, then go ahead and count the feet to the bottom of the pool. A tad of depersonalization disorder...
Everyone asks me about you, and I keep forgetting...
(via iamsolomon)
Sweep You Away
iamsolomon:
When I was younger, even a few months ago, I used to wake up in the middle of the night with tears streaming out of my eyes, and marks on my arms where I bit myself in sleep. I never remembered the dreams. I never knew if they were nightmares. I assumed that the emotion that came out was a reflection of how much I kept inside myself. I was wrong. After I went through a phase of...
Every time I wish for something, the exact...
(via iamsolomon)
“Ilana! Please me damn it!”
– Micah. (via iamsolomon)
Future of the Ghost
iamsolomon:
The sky matches the ground, so if I walk out into the horizon, I’ll end up home. Maybe the world froze over, I’d glide over to you… or walk on the ocean to a destination out of reach for so long. Maybe it should have been me face first in the ice. Maybe it should have been you who tried to reach out. Circumstances now forgotten, but the stale taste of smoke stained air hangs around.
...
It's official, my hometown has been bombed. Call...
(via iamsolomon)
You've Got to be Kidding Me. →
reblawggs:
(via iamsolomon)
I remember reading somewhere, that if you kiss...
reblawggs:
(via iamsolomon)
Filler Paper
reblawggs:
iamsolomon:
I’m a tasteful blend of obsessive compulsive disorder and quirks. I’m eclectic and irrational. I push myself and others to the limit, just for future reference. I feign interest and exaggerate my emotions. I’m prone to being harassed and psychologically dismantled. I have a hard time picking favorites because in reality I like almost everything. I put others ahead of...
I'll just wait here, then.
reblawggs:
(via iamsolomon)
NEW TUMBLR. HOTTEST THING EVER. SO SLEEK. SO FINE.
reblawggs:
(via iamsolomon)
There goes the raven, gliding in to steal more of...
reblawggs:
(via iamsolomon)
Calling Shots
reblawggs:
iamsolomon:
Lighting fires, sparking flames.
I don’t care if you stick by your guns, they’re still aimed at my head. That’s a cruel way to play. I didn’t even get to keep my sanity, you took everything but material possessions. I wanted to hide you from the cold, I wanted to shield you from the rain. I saved the conversations I couldn’t bear to read. And when I think back to when...
There goes the raven, gliding in to steal more of...
reblawggs:
(via iamsolomon)
I'm losing my best friend because he refuses to...
reblawggs:
(via iamsolomon)
Playing the wiki how game.
reblawggs:
iamsolomon:
With Julez.
Jump Ship
reblawggs:
iamsolomon:
You look great. I’m starting to miss you, these days.
I came home shrugging off the memories I made in the past few weeks. Rolling them off my crooked spine. I quietly slipped away to the bathroom and washed my face. I ran the bath and sat under the sink reading Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close. When the water nearly flowed over onto the floor, I twisted the knob to...
What If's and Maybe's
Mom: Why am I not a lawyer?
Me: You hate law.
Dad: See, even Ilana knows.
Mom: I could be a good lawyer.
Me: You didn't even want to finish your residency.
Dad: She has a point.
Mom: If I were a lawyer, I'd be rich and leave you.
Dad: You could have stayed a doctor, and been rich.
Me: You could have married someone else.
Surgery
reblawggs:
iamsolomon:
I can’t stand there for hours playing with my hands, controlling a life like that… I just want to hold a hand attached to an arm with a pulse. Or look into a pair of eyes that aren’t dull with drugs or alcohol. Reflections of myself make relationships painful. I’d be the doctor that got attached, sewed strings between themselves and patients. A reason I gave up on my pipe...
I shouldn't be punished with a cold shoulder, a...
reblawggs:
(via iamsolomon)
“I’m just a big liar.”
– David Sedaris. (via iamsolomon)
I want hot Apple Cider and a roaring fire.
(via iamsolomon)
